Being Overlooked 

I suppose this is more of a vent type blog rather than an insightful one, but anywho. For those of you who don't know I am a Christian, filled with the Holy Spirit and try to lead a very Spirit led life. So with this being said I think the enemy tries to attack me by feeling secluded and left out. Whether it be me being the only vegan I know in my clique, or my family and my in-laws leaving my husband and I out of things, or me not really being a people person its hard for me to talk to people and to make friends. I was just talking to my husband last night about the latter subject, about why didn't people like me because they don't really talk to me. I was trying to befriend someone and telling them a story about something that happened and every time I tried to talk to them I would get one word answers, so in my mind I think "why doesn't this person like me" or "what am I doing wrong where they don't want to talk to me". But I don't think it is either, I just don't know what it is that makes the "making friends" process easier where it doesn't make me feel drained.  As for my family and in-laws I guess I seek a desire to be liked and included in both of these families, my husband and I don't get invited to places on either side really even though it would be something we would like to do. I try not to let it bother me too much but at the same time it would be nice to feel "loved" by both sides of the family. And I suppose this is the way I receive love, where as my husband doesn't mind he hasn't been invited, but this is something I need to work on, trying to get someone that isn't my husband to love me. Because lets be honest my husband loves me and we didn't marry each other's families. So I really do need to take this into my prayer closet though, because the only way I am going to get over these feelings and emotions and not feel bitter to these people in my life is to take it to God and give it to Him, so then I don't have to worry about it anymore. In the mean time I will stick to hanging out with my husband and my friend that God brought me all the way from another state, and if He brings more friends into my life I will accept them dearly, I just get tired of putting myself "out there" for friends and being let down. I get let down enough by people who are supposed to be my family (which is something else I need to give to God) so it is hard to be let down by people who aren't even related. My husband is my ultimate best friends and the person who understands me the most (besides God) and I lean on him in my times of emotional distress and I am so ever thankful that my husband is in my life because he helps me greatly in dealing with these "loud" emotions that keep my overthinking mind going at night. So thanks for reading my vent/rant